Things That I've Done in Video Games

Won the Super Bowl
Won a NCAA Football Championship
Won the NBA Finals
Won the Heisman
Blown up the Death Star
Killed Darth Vader
Killed as Darth Vader
Driven 180 MPH
Ridden a dinosaur
Killed a dinosaur
Been killed by a dinosaur
Killed as a dinosaur
Saved a princess
Shot down Japanese Zeros in the Pacific
Flown Hellcats, Wildcats, and Corsairs
Used a jet pack
Traveled in time
Killed the Shredder
Destroyed the One Ring
Dunked a basketball
Scored 80 points in a basketball game
Defeated every single NFL and NBA team
Swung from the buildings of New York on a web
Flown the Millenium Falcon
Fought in the Battle of Midway
Fought at Pearl Harbor

There are way more things, but these are my favorites. I've lead an interesting fake life.

I'm reliving my freshmen year of college tonight. I'm sitting alone in my living room and the only light on is the computer monitor. I'm listening to a playlist I made containing my favorite songs from freshmen year. I've been going back through xanga entries of mine and friends from that year. This is how I used to spend my Saturday nights at Northwest. My roommate always left on the weekends and even if I'd go and hang out with people (which was rare), I always ended up staying up late on the computer listening to slow songs (ok fine...emo songs) and writing on xanga (this was pre-facebook, mind you) or in word documents about what was on my mind. I'm really enjoying reliving this experience right now. It sounds like a really lame time, I'm sure, but I feel really peaceful and nostalgic right now. My freshmen year was uneventful and I never really talk about it because nothing really happened. But I really liked it and every now and then, I miss it. I kind of have a love/hate relationship with my freshmen year. Sometimes, I'll say I wasted a year of college being anti-social and hanging on to high school too much, and sometimes I'll say it was the most relaxed and introspective I've ever been in my entire life. I think the overall evaluation of my freshmen year goes something like this: despite the fact that I was anti-social and didn't take any opportunities to build new friendships that could have led to a lot of fun times and good memories, I still greatly enjoyed that year of my life. I don't remember events from that time, I remember feelings. I remember feeling peaceful in my dark dorm room having AIM converstations at 3 AM and listening to music on headphones. I remember feeling sad a lot, but not the kind of sad that makes you depressed or angry. It was the kind of sad that makes you remember times and people that made you happy at one point or another. I wouldn't say it's a bad feeling, it's actually not really sad at all, but that's what it feels like. It's like feeling disappointment for great things that have come and gone and feeling happy for the fact that those moments happened in your life at the same time. But I don't know how else to describe it, and like I said, it feels sad. It's like laughing and crying at the same time. The biggest tragedy of my freshmen year is that I was always looking to the future because I didn't realize how much I liked it. So I was always thinking about going home for the summer or what I was going to do my sophomore year. I was so anxious to get the year over and now I'm sitting here three years later fondly remembering how I used to sit alone in the dark. It sounds pathetic, it really does. I don't expect anybody to understand what I miss about that year. I'm struggling to put it into words. I don't miss what I did or who I was with. I miss how I felt. I can still remember those feelings vividly, I hope I still can in 20 years.

Does anybody read this thing any more? Do I even care? I think the answer to both is no.

I always thought having a xanga was a dumb idea. I'm not sure why I'm typing right now in this window. If nobody reads it and I don't care if anybody reads it or not then why don't I just write what I'm thinking in a word document or on paper? I used to care, back during my freshmen year when I first opened this thing. But I don't any more for whatever reason, so why am I posting? The photo entries are one thing, they're not nearly as fun in a word document. But this...what's the point? Where is my motivation to continue typing? There is something compelling me to write in xanga tonight. Maybe it's nostalgia. Maybe it's the fact that I've had limited human contact since noon on Friday and I have the strong urge to communicate. I don't FEEL lonely but that doesn't mean I'm not lonely. I do feel nostalgic, so maybe that's it. Perhaps I yearn for the days when I would write in xanga and somebody would read it and care what it said. I'm sure it'll pass by tomorrow.

I'm Looking Forward to Football

I'm having hardcore football withdrawls. I'm probably going to watch AFL games tomorrow, that's how bad it's getting. Let's get psyched for next season, shall we?

His intials are JC. Perhaps some miracles are in store for year three of the Cutler era.

If he can put down the joint and hang on to the football, Henry can do a lot of good in Denver.

This man is a freak.

The slot machine

Tony Scheffler might be the most underrated tight end in the AFC.

The black, football-playing, not-dead version of Elvis.

Will. Sam. Mike. It doesn't matter what you call him, DJ Williams is a stud.

He's not as fast as he used to be, but Lynch still can, and probably will, give you a concussion.

Bailey and Bly: The Killer Bs.

The Mastermind.

The Other Mastermind. "You gotta do what's right for the kids!"

I'm going to miss this place.


Remeber that time JO threw the game winning touchdown pass on 4th down against Washburn? I do.

With Robinson, Wright, and Qaoud back this year, I think NW has the strongest WR corps in the MIAA this year. By the way, remember that time that Kendall Wright caught that game-winning touchdown pass on 4th down against Washburn? I do.

And with LeFlore, Clayton, and Jones back, our secondary is pretty darn good as well.

I know XO is gone, but I thought I'd post this picture of him scoring the winning TD against Pitt.
Here's the video. All my life I wanna be a Bearcat!

I am going to miss Bearcat football so much I can't ever fathom it. While I was finding these pictures, I started to realize that I wasn't going to the games next year and it made my stomach upset.
 

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